7:06 AM Thursday, September 17, 2009
TITLE : Run baby Run.
MUSIC : 傻瓜－温岚
Date : 17th Sept'09
I really need you now.I felt so lost this afternoon. I miss you so much. I hope time can rewind.
Cause,iSLY.After oral is such a emotional moment.I dunnoe why when i felt hurt and lost, the first person i tot of ,not jiahui , but chu. I din realise how much ily when i re-read hamster diary during Sept hols.When i tot i love u that much, i tot that i oredi reach the max. the climax of my love towards u, i cant love anyone more than that.And now, i get to know that i realli realli love u that much.How terrified i m this afternoon, Breeze became too cold for me.When you could not cry when you need to, you will be even more sorrowful.I dunnoe how to describe my feeling....v.lost. I walk 100 over times up and down the flight of stairs when waiting for jiahui this afternoon.I know i cant cry.Cause it is school.Not a place to emo.But, it is so mixedup.My feeling.ifeel like crying coz of the _l_ mSPOON initially.But why i will start thinking you when i m so lost.Ifeel like saying hug me baby when i m down, Wipe my tears when i cry.Pls oh Pls. But, you aren't there. So i felt lost. My mind is filled with u. kaopei. i fedup with myself.
Why cant i just giveup.Just let it go jiaen. he dun like u. He wont. He might u tot.But this kind of thoughts are gng to kill u. The pain is killing u now. How? love is such a mistake. No, loving u is such a mistake.I tot it will be over soon .After eoys,everything will be fine and end.Jiaen, bear with the pain i said. Close your eyes, shut your ears , everything is ending soon.Pain killer is on the way.
其实 他做的坏事 我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数 我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯地懂 爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留
傻瓜
我们都一样被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜
我们都一样受了伤 却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句
傻瓜
i tot i wont love anybody more than horse.The feeling of loving horse is so diff. from loving u. I dun hav to be overwhelmed by pretence, dun have to witness everything.It is such a dream to love horse.Tiring though.Loving you is so diff. Horse is like so far away.But ,you, i like once almost manage to got your hand.But i let it slip away. In mist,i lost my way.Then, i choose the wrong path. ihatemyself. i m such a humji. i deserve everything renow. i cant blame bolan right? i dunnoe wats love.it so complicated.i dunnoe.mayb , just mayb. kvin might solve everyth. Fuckup,i m such a bitch. I always tot of kvin only when i need to get over u. Everytime oso like this. Why? why m i such a bitch. i hope kvin will never saw this post.Ihatemyself.But,i will tell him the true thinking of mine.iknow it's gotta hurt him agn.Why m i such a bitch? i obviously knows how sucks the feeling of luving some1 dun like u,but i still do this to kvin. im sori.
i sense my sadness for real.Really v.aching.i dont noe why i can love hamster more than horse but when i oso think this two belong to two kind of love.Diff. so Diff. i m such a bitch.how i can i giveup horse when i once tot i love him so much in the past.onli 1year then change to hamster.next year lerh?will i change agn? omfg,i m such a bitch.I dunoe if that really is love liao. i begin to doubt myself. if is love , why one year then love another one?why?why?i dunnoe~!!!!!!omfg..i m so freak. i v.stress out.i mso tired....i wanna close my eyes for one.nobody can give me advice.i m such a bitch i tink.kaopei. i dunnoe.wats my feeling?when i tot of the oast loving daniel, my heart still ache.then?means i still like him?? Then hamster lerh?? i tot now i love hamster? then why i m so sad when i miss hamster? tats love rtie?why i will cry when i lost hamster? why i will panic when i saw him with her?why i will wan to noe wat he is tinking? i dunnoe how much i can like a person anymore.i was once so confirm abt my love towards u. i neh doubt b4.why? love so fragile? 1 year then boom, gone, another one liao.then those hu stead one then antoher after another when they keep promising them they truely love them....when u say u love the 2nd girl,then the promise u gave the 1st girl lerh?wat they thinking?i dunnoe. wishy part just sucks. im a bitch.
when i say im a bitch. i m realli lost. when i will gone case when others say i m a bitch.
when i listern to 傻瓜. i m realli lost.when i will cry lke hell when listerning to 傻瓜.
when i say hug me baby.i m realli lost.when i will run baby run when i m lost.
Labels: i post too much. coz i m lost.
